Free Refills

Free Refills

A Doctor Confronts His Addiction

Dr. Peter Grinspoon seemed to be a total success: a Harvard-educated M.D. with a thriving practice; married with two great kids and a gorgeous wife; a pillar of his community. But lurking beneath the thin veneer of having it all was an “addict”  fueled on a daily boatload of prescription meds. When the police finally came calling–after a tip from a sharp-eyed pharmacist–Grinspoon’s house of cards came tumbling down fast. His professional ego turned out to be an impediment to getting clean as he cycled through recovery to relapse, his reputation, family life, and lifestyle in ruins. What finally moves him to recover and reclaim life–including working with other physicians who themselves are addicted –makes for inspiring reading.

Praise & Reviews

“[A] very honest story of dependence and redemption.”
New York Post

“When two detectives showed up at Peter Grinspoon’s medical practice informing him he was being charged with fraudulently obtaining controlled substances, he knew he was screwed. Not because he was being falsely accused, but because it was true. In Free Refills, Grinspoon takes us down into the special hell that is addiction-in his case it was a raging addiction to opiates that, conveniently, he could write his own prescriptions for. With sharp, dark wit, Grinspoon maintains his sense of humor in the face of near defeat, as he struggles to get (and stay) clean while his life comes apart at the seams. Free Refills is a self-deprecating, brutally honest, and surprisingly hilarious read. You can’t help but root for the good doctor.”
Dan Lyons, author of Disrupted and co-writer/producer of HBO’s Silicon Valley

“Dr. Grinspoon bravely lays his complex soul bare as he tumbles from Harvard star doctor to addicted criminal. In this deeply affecting ride through the contradictions of addiction, we cringe at his arrogance, resentment, and self-justification while loving his compassion, commitment, and gratitude. We laugh at his cynical disdain for the simplistic platitudes and punitive inanity of the recovery world, but feel his pain as he learns humility and permits his best self to emerge. It’s a process of discovery I hope to encourage in my patients, and provides hope without sugar-coating. This is an important book for doctors and patients that blurs the boundaries because it is so fundamentally human.”
Dr. Mark Green, addictions specialist at Psych Garden

Free Refills is an honest and brave account of the ups and downs of addiction and recovery, and a reminder that sometimes our darkest moments can teach us the greatest lessons.”
Dan Marshall, author of Home is Burning

“Enlightening and intimate, this book will hold the attention of medical professionals, addiction counselors, and those affected by substance abuse.”
Library Journal